Anxiety

A hard week, a lovely gig, a tired but happy Wes Packer…

A hard week, a lovely gig, a tired but happy Wes Packer…

This week has been difficult. As I’ve already mentioned, I’ve spent the last few weeks coming off one set of meds and onto another – with the new meds failing to counter the withdrawal from the old. So I’ve been dealing with withdrawal AND side […]

Shitting Bricks: Launching the show at The Duke

Shitting Bricks: Launching the show at The Duke

Neath…I am coming… I’ll be honest, I almost cancelled the gig. It’s been a busy few weeks – busier than I’ve been in a while – with a lot of travel, a funeral, lots of bullshit admin stuff to do for the jobs and income […]

Sleep. At last, real progress…

Sleep. At last, real progress…

I don’t sleep – and not sleeping is dangerous. If, for whatever reason, you are suffering from insomnia or have been struggling with sleep issues for a while then please get professional help as soon as you possibly can. I can’t remember the last decent […]

Meet The Packers…

Meet The Packers…

My CV looks like the CV of a man with depression: fifteen jobs in the seventeen years between graduating in 2000 and my redundancy and subsequent depression relapse in 2017 – a relapse I am still recovering from. Consider also that my first job – […]

I’ve been there…

I’ve been there…

Trigger Warning: This is what I’ve started to call a ‘testimony post‘ where I share my experiences of life on the road, life with depression, anxiety and self-esteem and anger issues. Can be sometimes graphic and/or sweary/controversial. Will be tagged/hashtagged ‘Testimony’.

Eighteen seconds into episode one of the US sit-com “Maron”, the titular stand-up comedian, podcaster, writer and actor declares: “A few years ago, I was planning on killing myself in my garage and now I’m doing the best thing I’ve ever done in my life in that same garage.”

I know the feeling…

Black Dog Moan…

Black Dog Moan…

Back in 2012, after my initial diagnosis, I started an anonymous blog. Some helpful fucker told me it would help so I called it Black Dog Moan, after a Sam Jackon movie, and fully intended to write regularly, detailing the ‘daily strugs’ of a comedian […]

A Perfect Example…

A Perfect Example…

Last night I was supposed to appear at Drones Comedy Club at Chapter Arts Centre. BBC Wales were due to be there to film my segment for a piece we’re working on for BBC Wales Live. Couldn’t do it. Pulled out. Everyone involved knew this […]

The Big One…The Black Dog

The Big One…The Black Dog

This is the post I’ve been putting off writing for six years. I’ve been writing it since Monday. I’ve written and re-written it so many times that my trash now has more drafts of this post than emails offering me Viagra. It won’t be what […]