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World Mental Health Day News…

World Mental Health Day News…

World Mental Health Day… I’ve had my head down for a month or so but it’s World Mental Health Day and I have some news… BBC Wales Live, Tonight @ 10:35 I’ll be appearing on the BBC Wales Live program tonight, talking about my comedy […]

Mood swings and roundabouts…

Mood swings and roundabouts…

Haven’t done much, I must admit. I’ve had a tough few weeks. I allowed momentum to slow to a halt after my great week with Hugh and the NCMH bods and have struggled to get started again. I’ve done little comedy work, I’ve canceled gigs […]

Another gig canceled but great news via NCMH…

Another gig canceled but great news via NCMH…

Gig Fail… I pulled the gig. All-together too much shit went too wrong yesterday for me to feel like I could drive to Exter and back for a gig. I’m ok, I’m at home and I’m safe but a gig last night would have been […]

Depressing Busting Course Starts Tomorrow…

Depressing Busting Course Starts Tomorrow…

I’m off to The Factory, Porth, tomorrow afternoon for a Depression Busting course. I almost had a breakdown trying to park in Porth last week so this time I’m going via Viva Arriva. Course numbers were low last week so they’re starting from scratch tomorrow. […]

63% Happy!!! Duw, duw, duw…

63% Happy!!! Duw, duw, duw…

63%??? Surely not? According to tonight’s MoodScope score, I am currently 63% Happy. I’ve worked hard and learned lessons today. Dropped a clanger with the blog earlier so some of you got mailed an incomplete blog post. Sorry ’bout that. If this one doesn’t turn […]

What a day…

What a day…

“It’s been a funny day,” as Arkwright would say… I take depression day by day. It’s the only way I can stay on top of it. Some days are better than others, I’m sure you can relate, and some days just seem to stick around […]

Depression Busting Fail…

Depression Busting Fail…

I failed to bust my depression. Oh well. I was supposed to attend the session at Too Good To Waste in Ynyshir this morning but couldn’t get out of bed. I decided to go to The Pop Factory this afternoon, felt ok with that, and […]

52% Happy? Depression Busting?

52% Happy? Depression Busting?

It’s terrifying, how quickly the time passes. The last Moodscope test I did was forty-two days ago but feels like a week. I’m tired today. I’m waking up every day without the strength to clench a fist, my legs shake, feel weak, like they can’t […]

The state of my head…

The state of my head…

During the first public performance of 40% Happy last Thursday, I mentioned to the audience that the show was gonna be a bit ropey. They understood, some even told me after the show that they found it interesting, watching someone working through material and ideas […]

Doing my best…

Doing my best…

I did the gig. I almost cancelled it last Friday, I almost cancelled it on Thursday morning, and I almost turned around on the way there; thanks to my partner and to Mind UK, I managed to stave off a panic attack on arrival. It […]