My CV looks like the CV of a man with depression: fifteen jobs in the seventeen years between graduating in 2000 and my redundancy and subsequent depression relapse in 2017 – a relapse I am still recovering from. Consider also that my first job – […]
Author: Wes Packer
Trigger Warning: This is what I’ve started to call a ‘testimony post‘ where I share my experiences of life on the road, life with depression, anxiety and self-esteem and anger issues. Can be sometimes graphic and/or sweary/controversial. Will be tagged/hashtagged ‘Testimony’.
Eighteen seconds into episode one of the US sit-com “Maron”, the titular stand-up comedian, podcaster, writer and actor declares: “A few years ago, I was planning on killing myself in my garage and now I’m doing the best thing I’ve ever done in my life in that same garage.”
I know the feeling…
Back in 2012, after my initial diagnosis, I started an anonymous blog. Some helpful fucker told me it would help so I called it Black Dog Moan, after a Sam Jackon movie, and fully intended to write regularly, detailing the ‘daily strugs’ of a comedian with depression and anxiety. As I’m sure you’ve guessed by now, it didn’t last. I tried again in 2013 but was too far down to really make any sense of what I was going through. I was hardly in a position to help or inspire anyone else.
A few fellow comics tried to work out who was writing it (congrats, Suz) but, ultimately, it was all a storm in a coffee cup.
Anyway, I had a scrute recently and it’s still there. You’re welcome to have a read:
Not exactly ‘back by popular demand’ but a few people have asked about video recently.
I’m starting again, from scratch, for reasons I’ll go into in the next post, so I’ve made it public again.
If you haven’t seen it, enjoy. If you have, probably not worth watching again.
I’ll be previewing my new show – which may or may not include some re-worked ‘greatest hits’ – at the Neath Comedy Festival, 2018. This is my first crack at writing a coherent, personal hour (or so) of stand-up and it means a lot. Where […]
On Saturday, I was proud to attend, and perform at, the launch of my old friend Dr. Dean Burnett’s second book, ‘The Happy Brain’. I presented the audience with some of my well-considered and balanced opinions on work, life, love, and smoking, and then sat […]
I got to drop in on Rhod and Corky at the weekend for some horsin’ around on BBC Radio Wales’ Rhod Gilbert Show. If you missed it, you can listen again here: http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b08yztr3 And you can download the ‘Best Bits’ podcast from here: http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/p05b0mzs Really […]